Happy Father's Day!

It's my very first one! Cause it's all about me ya know...my father passed away when I was very little (add that to the 'oh that's why I was messed up as a kid' file.) and so we never celebrated or acknowledged it in any way. I don't have any memories of Father's Day even being spoke of at our house. I didn't even really realize it was in June until I got married and we sent my father in law things. Talk about denial! Last year when I was pregnant we celebrated a little bit, too afraid to tempt the fates to go all out with the baby 6 weeks away, but this year he is here and fat and happy and let the celebrating begin!In a too-cute-for-words decision my husband has decided we should celebrate and Benny Hannas because that's where they always celebrated his birthday when he was a kid. So cute. Here's hoping Sweet Baby Max likes the cooking show as much as he liked the Beatles Tribute show Rain (which was totally awesome and you should go if you like the Beatles at all!)

One of the reasons I've always been scared to have a daughter is that I was so messed up myself. I was a daughter in desperate need of a father. It's terribly embarrassing to be midway through a psych course in childhood and teenage development and realize you are a clinical case, a stereotype of a girl with Daddy issues. It is only by the grace of God that I didn't fully go down the Rabbit Hole.

As I watch my FIL with my SIL and watch my husband with her, those fears start to fade. I do want another baby, and hopefully another boy. But truly watching how similar my sister in law and I are (we even have the same birthday) by nature but how different by nurture, I see even more how a strong father influence can make all the difference.

My husband is a wonderful father to Max, already there is basketball and lots of silly dancing and pratfalls. Anything to get a Max giggle! Max is truly lucky to have a father (and a grandfather) who will want to be involved in anything he does. He wants to do theatre? We'll be there building the sets. Well, the boys will be. I'll be doing the costumes or choreographing or directing the shows, Zach might direct too! Soccer? He's got a coach. Baseball, basketball whatever it is! Unless it's math and then we're all screwed. We'll get him the best tutor ever. Whatever he is interested in we will be involved.

I wish all the Father's out there a wonderful day. Thank you for being good daddies to our precious babies.

Especially you Zach Dulli. This last year has been the greatest having Max, but one of the worst with almost everything else! I see how hard you are working and I love you even more for it. Thank you for working to take care of us. Thank you for singing Luck Be a Lady just one more time and spinning Max around because it makes him laugh. Thank you for hopping in the bathtub fully clothed when Max was freaking out. Thank you for having my back at the pediatricians and thank you for keeping your sense of humor. You are the bestest!! Here's to your first Father's day, and here's to many, many more to come!