When I got to California it was like I was reborn...all the things that made me a freak in Colorado, the wacky sense of humor, the offbeat fashion sense, the affinity for humongous Jackie-O shades and the desire to wear high heels to school every day now made me well, fascinating. There were many girls who I admired who had 17 years of California-ness on me and who had simply bloomed under the freedom to accessorize and costume how they saw fit.
It was heaven.
Oh yeah, I was still a train wreck in certain areas and continued to be (hmpf. I'm going with past tense it's my blog!) for quite a while. Not ingesting any food for years on end can make a gal a little nutty. (See above where I moved back to Colorado for a boy) But I digress.
I found my footing in California, especially in Los Angeles and when Dub moved to LA it was even better! Dub, who had let me braid ribbons in her hair as 1st graders and also wore her slip on the outside while playing Little House on the Prairie now was living not only in the same city as me, but the same apartment! It was as if all our let's pretend games in our childhood had come true.
Heather was the first person I told I was pregnant (I mean other than Zach and Gaily-O who helped decipher the very first oh-so-faint-test.) and she immediatly said "are you craving anything?" I told her OJ which is so weird because I didn't like OJ before this. Dub said "oh thank God! I must be having sympathy cravings because I can't get enough OJ!" I inquired if perhaps she too could be with child. She instantly poo-poohed the idea but a mere two days later she called me to inform me that she was all knocked up! WHOOHOOOOO!! We've gone through this before together, of course. We were 7 and both pregnant with Cabbage Patch kids at the time, and we lived in a cute little condo (aka my front porch) I do believe she was married to Rob Lowe and I was married to Michael J Fox...or I was married to Rob Lowe and she was married to Michael J Fox. Whatever.
Heather is, well truly graceful and just friggin lovely. I'm crazy jealous of it. Every boyfriend I ever had in high school eventually uttered the magic words: why can't you be more like Heather?
Dude. Like I hadn't been asking myself that on the daily since I was 3.
Heather of course, handled pregnancy with such glowing grace while I meanwhile quickly resembled Jabba the Hut and never stopped puking long enough to get any glow. How one can gain as much as I did whilst puking for 9 months is beyond me, but oh well! Heather wanted natural childbirth (me too!) she walked and did yoga (I hobbled and layed on the couch with a trash can nearby watching Law and Order), she planned on nursing and...what? Umm. No thanks. I was NO on breastfeeding. It just seemed kinda icky and I am not too touchy feely to begin with..so no.
But Heather was doing it.
When we were 11 Heather and I spent every morning up on my roof suntanning. Of course we got stuck on the roof one day and Heather actually got stuck half on and half off, sort of hanging off the roof almost to the fence stuck and kinda scared. (I would have been too!) Obviously in this instance I was the one who had come up with the brilliant plan and thus I was the one in trouble. Dub's mom asked the age old question:
If Stephanie jumped off a bridge would you? 11 year old Dub just looked at her and said 'Duh."
So if Heather is breastfeeding...then so am I!
Heather had Zu 6 whole days before Max joined us so I got to watch Dub get her nursing groove on before I had to awkwardly attempt to imitate her innate motherliness. And she was indeed, a natural.
Who would have thought it, but so was I! Max and I took to nursing like a duck takes to water, and I never looked back. Max is 18 months old now and we're still going strong. I've nursed at IKEA, at the National Cathedral, on airplanes, in restaurants, basically anywhere my kid needs to eat...I feed him! It's easier now of course, with sippies of hormone free organic milk and yummy biscuits. I find that even though I left Boulder long ago...I am still buying local grown organic veggies and fruits for Max. He eats whole grains and fresh avacado almost daily, I search for organic materials for his clothes. I have been a vegetarian for a hundred years and I am raising Max to eat healthily and cruelty free. His clothes are washed in cruelty free, dye free, perfume free detergent.
I'm a freaking Boulderite after all.
6 week old Max, looking for lunch
But I am NEVER wearing Birkenstocks.